Adam Fucking Frantz

Letter #15 – May 14th, 2014

I’ve received a few letters containing encouraging words to kick me in my ass and get me writing again. I KNOW, it’s been way too long. Well, I’m still here…in prison. It still sucks. Nothing new there. BUT, I am closer to being out than the last time you heard from me. Everyday I’m closer.

Prison is a weird fucking place. The wide array of people you come across creates such a spectrum of different backgrounds and areas of…expertise. Though, of course, we have our common grounds as well: Pretty much every dude in here is a greedy, selfish cheater. Different levels of course, but there is definitely some commonality there. I, of course, fall–or fell–under those categories as well. Some of us are making amends and trying to change;. Others… well, that’s what they know.
Everyone also seems to want nothing more than to be with their families, even though they could hardly make time for them prior to incarceration. ‘Never know what you’ve got until it’s gone’ type of thing. While we all sit and wait to go home to our loved ones, we just try to pass the time. Working out, group sports, reading or studying something, watching TV, or my favorite, laughing.

Inmates have an uncanny ability to light-heartedly make fun of each other, in every way possible. From your physical appearance, things you say or do, stuff they notice about you. And EVERYTHING gets noticed. Trust me 1,000+ ex-cons see what goes on around them all day. You are NOT getting away with anything. It is surprising how often we are falling on each other laughing our asses off–sober, mind you.

People have asked me many times how I stay so positive when they hear from me. Well, it helps that I’m constantly laughing, and surrounded by others doing the same. I’ve always tried to remain positive in life and if I’m doing it here; I’m pretty sure I’m succeeding at it. Sure, there’s plenty of reasons for me to be unhappy, but what good does that do me? I could complain, but who wants to hear it? It is what it is. Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. I’ll get through this. Life WILL get better. I’ll keep laughing and smiling until then. It’s good for me.

PEACE (Positive Energy Activates Constant Elevation)
AFF

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